My name is Javon VonEye and I am a 2018-2019 Frontline intern. I am originally from Wyoming and found Frontline through my old worship pastor in a small town in Wyoming. I was searching for something after high school to help me grow in my faith and in leadership. I have a huge desire to grow and learn in my relationship with Jesus. This internship has done a great job of discipling me and helping me grow.
We have done a few readings in the internship, with a couple that really stuck out to me. The Pursuing God is one of my favorite books we have read so far: it’s given me an overwhelming sense of peace and joy in the Lord, knowing how he loves me and pursues me each and every day. God is constantly chasing me down, but I often forget his love for me. I look for joy and fulfillment in things on earth that I think will make me feel good or make me feel important. This book hit home on the lesson I learned all throughout the first semester: how much God loves me. He is not looking for anything to impress him or anything that he can get out of me that can benefit him, he just loves me as his son.
Part of this plays hand in hand with the struggles I didn't even know I had with my identity. I tried to find identity in playing guitar, and being on stage, and the cool stuff I have. But none of those things sustain me like a rooted identity in Christ does. His overflowing love has been great to me during the process of this internship and this book just filled me up even more with love for him. I am grateful that the God of ages, the creator of the heavens and earth, is a pursuing God and will never stop pursuing me.